written by Bryan Chan

Laying on top of the hostel bed, scrolling through old pictures and videos on my phone, reminiscing old memories until I doze off. It was then that I questioned myself on why am I here doing missions, and realise I was in this slight denial that social media addiction isn’t a reality to me.
There was a slight feeling of disconnect from the world without being able to scroll through Facebook or WhatsApp, and it was this disconnection that led me to a more in depth self-reflection and journaling, followed by listing down my true expectations through this relief-mission and asking for the Holy Spirit to lead me.

Looking back at my journal, I wrote questions such as: “why am I teaching them?” and “am I giving my best?” has taught me to renew my desires and thoughts every time. On the other hand, you get to see the different culture at the other end of your country thus you see God’s amazing creation in people. You get to actually see and understand why they say that the ‘urban-church’ is a minority in Christianity throughout the world, and how passion in prayer isn’t only limited to the English language.
Teachers are people I have learnt to truly respect and honour. Teaching is not and never will be an easy job. Experiencing it myself got me wondering that the energy and passion teachers have to put in every day. Looking at the children, I try to relate to them and I try to see how my years in primary education could fit them, so that I would be able to teach with a purpose, I was then able to learn how one grow from child to adolescent, how the learning process work, through looking back at myself and seeing the learning process taking place before me. It is also here that I learnt that I’m not more privilege than them, as if you can give them all they need for education and all the education comes from ‘us’. But no, you see the incompetent and inability you have and at the same time, you see the need to guide them side-by-side through building a relationship – may it be through friendships or a student-teacher relationship.

Lastly, living with the Oois and seeing Seth and his father – got me reminiscing of my father-son relationship back home, how it has been quite rough but also how much he nurture and love me in my younger days; it sounds cheesy but it really does. You would not get to encounter these in the structured way of life back in Kuala Lumpur – I would use the word ‘comfort’ as not all has found it back in their family; it was the time here that I got to see.

And STORM is a program I would definitely encourage all those stepping into the age of adulthood to go for.

Bryan - STORM Sabah

Bryan Chan Missions in Sabah

Bryan Chan Missions in Sabah

To keep updated with what we do, subscribe to our newsletter. We promise no spam!